it has been a whirlwind of sorts. since coming back from pandaland a year ago, life has been nothing short of a frenzy.
Carpe diem
Remove judgment for it robs you of freedom
Life
15.6.11
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A Ponder
16.5.11
The memory is still vivid, I remember we were cruising along an expressway and the taboo topic popped up. I was stunned and did not know how to react. What struck me the most was this sentence: A person cannot make any mistake, one wrong step and thats it.
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Thank you universe
9.3.11
I never thought that I would feel this satisfied after a lesson. Usually, at the very most, I would be happy that I have sat through a funny and engaging lesson and thats that. But this week and the last, I have witnessed firsthand, what it is like to have a passion. Passion so strong it burns and lights the space so all those around can bask in its warmth and comfort. I feel honored and humbled. Honored to be given a chance and humbled that I am learning to emulate that fervor for life and for teaching. With them as guides, I know I can :)
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Strange compulsion to record this
2.3.11
Sound: (knock at the door) Me: (opens door. Looks at creature wearing a t-shirt that reads “fear of failure”, the shirt is covered in bloodstains.) “You?!?”, I exclaim, “I thought I was done with you.” “Apparently not, since you seem a bit flustered.” “Shit, is it that obvious? Listen, I know now that comparing oneself to others is silly. We all have different life paths, so it is a futile act to compare one with another. Each human is here to learn different things and progress in different ways.” “So why am I here then?” “Because I still have those days when my confidence takes a nose dive?” “You’re human, it happens.” “You might as come in. We should probably sit for a while. But only for a day or so because I have work to do and I’m anxious to get back to it.” “Why don’t we go for a long walk instead.” “Sounds good.” it spoke volumes to me and what i was/am going through. thank you keri s, i love your works :)
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Goodbye and hello
3.1.11
its now day three into the new year and as the saying goes, the leopard never changes its spots, so yea i am late again, in trying to size up just what 2010 really meant to me.
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stre-d :)
31.10.10
寒窗苦读,为了它。
okie granted, i did not spend a great deal of effort (no staying up past midnight sitting by the oil lamp whatsoever) on this last lap that would nicely wrap up my varsity life, not as much as the others anyway, i still hoped fervently that it would be enough to tide me through. and it was, indeed.
i think gratitude alone is not enough, so i will see to it that i really do put some of what i learnt over the past five years into practice, as a full fledged physician. someway somehow somewhere.
to have to receive the news while q-ing to get into the haunted mansion at the zoo was quite an experience by itself altogether. like: okies now the jitters are all coming frm thoughts of gg into the GUI mansion.
halloween was enjoyable, minus the missing money.
but today was just plain bleh, the earlier part of today at least. so lemme go out and get some fresh air.
right some wrongs baby :)
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now that i am back..
22.10.10
and the stre is over;
two of my very good friends have left for beijing (again);
i am constantly quarreling with my mom;
someone calls too often and i would like to know why;
hope for her to find peace and solace (same person in the previous sentence);
i hate to think that we are suffering due to someone's misdeed;
wants to find my balance, soon.
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